Saturday, October 22, 2005

i feel pathetic...once i reach home...i dont even have time to lyke relax and be happy...ended up crying??!!coz my mom was lyke total crapp lar..saying what i shldnt say excuses...then she say i go out then sae go out...dun give excuses lyke exams over...then lyke if i want to go out..muz ask her...lyke hello...if i ask her...i bet i cant even need to go out...lyke i dont tink i really ever GO OUT b4...i am lyke so sick of asking and asking over and over again..yet to hear the same reply each time...i have completey lyke no freedom at all...i cant eat whatever i lyke..cant do whatever i like...have to lyke report everything i do...i feel lyke a robot lar...i cant stand it anymore...so irritating lar...lyke even if after exams is an excuse...its still a fact..its afterall after exams...lyke u want me come home so early for what...all i do at home is just slack...so the onli big diff is that i slack somewhere else...so whats the problem..and lyke i juz wanna relax..coz its after exams...if i did badly..and lyke i cant go out...tts quite ok...but i did quite ok...so why cant i go out...actually..come to think of it...i have been asking that same question over and over again...but somehow i always dun get the answer...first she said when i older...then she said after exams...and so its after exams...and what do i get..nothing...crappified...bleah...
anyways..had drill competition today...then had sore throat...hahaha..then b4 it started..hahaha..took shijie's sore throat medicine thingy...hahaha..she qualified to be a doctor liaos...hahaha..then after everything ended...went to eat...then headed home...and here i am doing nothing...i juz ate lyke this big bowl of duno what dersert...so gross pls...its lyke red bean in some sticky paste with coconut milk..duno how to spell it...then i couldnt finish...told my mom...and she forced me to eat finish..as usual...lyke duh...bleah..i tink i shall juz rot to death at home...
i HATE silence

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